Not Done with My Changes

April 19, 2016

Ribbons of tulips, layers of colors

Ribbons of tulips, layers of colors

Cascade Mountains

Cascade Mountains

Layers of blue fabric

Layers of blue fabric

The Layers
by Stanley Kunitz, from Bill Moyers Fooling with Words: A Celebration of Poets and Their Craft

I have walked through many lives,
some of them my own,
and I am not who I was,
though some principle of being
abides, from which I struggle
not to stray.
When I look behind,
as I am compelled to look
before I can gather strength
to proceed on my journey,
I see the milestones dwindling
toward the horizon
and the slow fires trailing
from the abandoned camp-sites,
over which scavenger angels
wheel in heavy wings.
Oh, I have made a tribe
out of my true affections,
and my tribe is scattered!
How shall the heart be reconciled
to its feast of losses?
In a rising wind
the manic dust of my friends,
those who fell along the way,
bitterly stings my face.
Yet I turn, I turn,
exulting somewhat,
with my will intact to go
wherever I need to go,
and every stone on the road
precious to me.
In my darkest night,
when the moon was covered
and I roamed through wreckage,
a nimbus-clouded voice
directed me:
“Live in the layers,
not on the litter.”
Though I lack the art
to decipher it,
no doubt the next chapter
in my book of transformations
is already written.
I am not done with my changes.


3 Responses to “Not Done with My Changes”

  1. Janet McIntosh Says:

    Thank you for picking out pieces that speak to you and bravely sharing with people you don’t know. I try to proceed as though I’ve been given a lovely gift: I have!

  2. shoreacres Says:

    And yet, what are those layers built of, if not of the litter?

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