I Wonder as I Wander

December 19, 2013

Foggy morning at Green Lake

Foggy morning at Green Lake

I feel misdirected these days, as if I am wandering in a fog.  So my postings are likely to be sporadic until I figure out what I am doing and where I want to be heading with this blog.  I am ambivalent about how I want to use this communication tool.  I still view it as a sort of online journal, but I am sometimes tired of doing the same things with it.

When I started blogging, I had hoped the posts would be a day-to-day reflection of a Pacific Northwest year, and I think I accomplished that.  I’ve used the blog to document the small, ordinary moments in the life of an ordinary middle-aged woman, and I think I’ve done that as well.  So there have been lots of posts about nature, and cooking (with recipes), walking, books I’ve read, day trips, and some longer journeys.  I’ve used the blog to show my slow, gradual growth as a watercolor artist and to show the photographs I like to take.  If I revisit certain themes again and again, it’s because they reflect my interests, which don’t change that much over time.

But sometimes I don’t feel that I have anything to share.  I need to live a more interesting life to have interesting things to blog about day after day.  That’s not always happening, of course.

So I’m questioning how I want to manage this blog in the future.  I’m finding myself getting tired of documenting and writing about my daily activities.  I want to spend more timing actually doing things, and less time reporting about them.

I’m questioning my photography, too. Just this week I read an article in the Wall Street Journal called “I Snap, Therefore I Am.”  The article talks about the widespread practice of taking photographs with camera phones, a proliferation of picture taking that has become almost an addiction.  I feel this way, too.  I take photos many times so that I can illustrate a blog post, but the photos are often neither fresh nor unique.  I want to be more selective about making photographs, to approach photography with artistic intent instead of merely taking pictures to show that I’ve been there.

I sense that it is time for a new approach, new practices, more time just for me and not always shared in a blog post.  There may be gaps in my posting as I work through this.







30 Responses to “I Wonder as I Wander”

  1. Clare Says:

    For what it’s worth Rosemary, I enjoy your posts very much. It’s nice to see what’s happening on the other side of the mountains, through your filter, and I enjoy your travel photos as well. I do understand the ambivalence, however. I gave up my blog several years ago. Just took too much extra energy that I didn’t have. Take care!

    • Rosemary Says:

      Your appreciation is worth a lot. Much of my ambivalence is from not wanting to disappoint my readers. And for the joy these connections give me.

  2. Janet Foss Says:

    For what’s worth I think you have a unique way of looking at life that is refreshing, I enjoy seeing the northwest prespective, and have even been inspired to make a recipe or too. Sometimes I think writing even small bits can be come overwhelming, it’s our nature to think it has to be better than the last or whatever? I often get to a point where I can’t write at all and wonder why would any one want to know that, but then someone says they enjoy it, or it was helpful. You have chronicled an American woman’s life that is unique and wonderful and it shows your heart, and a very different prespective than the main media. Don’t let your blog consume you or your life though, I often wonder how do you get anything done it would take me all day just to get the blog done. BTW You are one of the most beautiful photographer of everyday life I know. Thanks for the insights I have received and never thanked you for.

  3. Gretchen Sand Says:

    Rosemary, Your photography, writing, and painting have been a near daily delight for me this year. I have tucked many away in this folder or that; shared entries countless times with friends who would appreciate. The writings of your visit with dad, your days in Manhatten, the leaves, the pumpkins and flowers marking the change of the season. All shared treasures. Add to that your gleanings from other’s writing and poetry. It’s as though you have been curating time with your eyes, brushes, and words. As you slow the blogging output down, savor the discretionary time and sharpen your focus on those things that give you joy. The task is not to blog but to live your life to the fullest. I appreciate your authenticity. It’s all good.

    • Rosemary Says:

      It’s funny that you use the word “curating” because I have been wondering how to curate my archive of photos and artwork. The Internet does make it possible for artists and writers to get their work out in public. I need to discover how a curator would approach a task like this, an online mini-exhibit. Lots to think about and learn!

    • Rosemary Says:

      I’m so glad the posts resonated with you. Thanks for commenting.

  4. Debbie Engel Says:

    You inspire me! I look forward to reading your blog each day. The way you write around your stunning pictures makes your blog so readable and fun.Taking pictures is an addiction I wish I had. Thanks for sharing your travels, your neighborhood, books and your kitchen.

  5. Shirley Says:

    I got connected to your blog after you gave a presentation of your pictures at Common Threads a few years ago. Now I log into your blog everyday and enjoy the pictures and your daily postings. Hopefully you continue, but understand the pressures of something new and different every postings. Thanks for the pleasure you have given me the last few years.

    • Rosemary Says:

      I remember you copying down the blog’s web address after the slide show! You’ve been a faithful follower. I imagine I will still blog frequently, but in bursts when I am following a thread of thought or presenting some new discovery. And then with several off days as I live my quiet life. The pressures of posting daily are just too much for me right now. But I love posting when I have something to share or say, so I don’t plan to stop completely.

  6. Diana Studer Says:

    many of the bloggers I started out with 4 years ago, have either posted less often, moved away to other things, or written thoughtful ‘I may be some time’ posts like yours.
    I’ve enjoyed your quotes from books I hope to read when we eventually move to False Bay and a good library.
    Your watercolours, your window on your world – so different to mine – have enriched my life.
    In 2014 I will be pruning old blog posts. Editing a few, and moving them to the new blog. Less fresh writing in the hopes that I’ll need that time for packing and moving and settling.

    • Rosemary Says:

      I, too, need time to reflect on the work already done and see if I can organize it into something bigger. I enjoy following your blog and look forward to hearing more about your new home and garden. And the sea!

  7. Janet McIntosh Says:

    I enjoy your attention to the details of an ordinary life; it makes me appreciate mine more. And I live not far from you, so I find comfort in the familiar! I wouldn’t want you to feel you MUST blog, but do know it is valued and appreciated! Do you read Heather Lende of Haines, Alaska? She is a friend of mine, in the same way you are…we have never met, but….

    • Rosemary Says:

      I’d not heard of HeAther, but I did peek at her blog, and it’s lovely. She seems to have good ties with her community.

  8. litzwired Says:

    This is a lovely blog. I really enjoy your images.

  9. Choral Eddie Says:

    Sounds like you have, in part, decided how to go forward with your sense of doing things that are arising from the work already done. So, I look forward to reading and viewing your blog when your passion calls for it. To have the time to do this is marvelous. Something I must work on. You give me encouragement to do so, so don’t quit.

  10. Joanna Blackburn Says:

    Dear Rosemary,
    It is always a joy to read your posts. Please continue to do what feels right for you, but know that many appreciate your thoughts, travel, artwork and photography. They have opened up so many new interests for me.

    We are inspired by what is present in your writings and understand if you need to take breaks. You have a large, but quiet, fan club!

    P.S. Hearing aids are also available at Costco for about $1000 each with lots of after-purchase support – a good experience.


    • Rosemary Says:

      I did notice that Costco had much less expensive hearing aids, and I’ve always been a fan of Costco quality. I didn’t really look outside my medical plan with Group Health this time. Perhaps after I retire and am on Medicare, I will look more closely at alternatives. Thanks for mentioning your good experience with them.
      And thanks for your words of support for my blog. I appreciate them.

  11. Elisa Says:

    I view the way you photograph what you see as a talent at getting and expressing a moment of noticing. I have not noticed any as simply shots to fill space. This feeling may be offset by the feeling and the art of your own that go along with the images you choose. I like the factual and energetic creative energy that dance hand in hand in what you post. I hope you notice, remember, and locate that which full fills you.

  12. Adrienne Says:

    There will be times when you feel like sharing with us. Then, please do. I’ll be there with the others – waiting.

  13. I also get a lot of inspiration from your posts, Rosemary. If you feel inspired to do so, please keep them coming. You have a very distinct and beautiful way of viewing light and form and I love the way you include literary quotes with your photographs and paintings. I have especially valued your posts about architecture and nature this past year, and have found them to be very restorative for the spirit. Thank you for sharing your creative gifts.

  14. Chris Says:

    Rosemary, all previous comments are exactly my sentiments, especially Gretchen’s, who as a long time friend of mine, I introduced to your blog. You probably have many more fans than you know and yes, we are all very much inspired with what you share with us, everyday…be it, photographs, paintings, words, quotes, travels. etc. It’s all lovely…Your more personal blog posts seem to bring more of us out to comment and join in a conversation, than others, so that may be a direction that would lead to more thoughtful inspirations for many of us. We seem to find common ground with those. They speak from the heart…
    Thank-you again for your gifts!

  15. Monica Townsend Says:

    Dear Rosemary,
    I discovered the “treasure” of your blog recently and have been reading you daily ever since. Your “blog” (that unlovely techno word is entirely inadequate for what you create) is a gift offered freely to the world. You are no “ordinary” woman, Rosemary; you are a writer, an artist, a teacher, a friend. You are awake, aware and alive! You pay close attention to your one and only life and are filled with praise for the beauty and solace of Nature, the beauty and consolation of the written word, the beauty and enrichment of art. You are that rare person who understands that beauty is an every day necessity and nourishment for the soul. Looking at your photographs and watercolors, I am privileged to see what you see, what you love and value. I gasp with delight every time I discover that we love the same poets, authors, artists and places…not to mention flora and fauna! I am equally delighted to be introduced to new experiences through you. The beloved poet May Sarton would remind you that you need to rest, replenish your energy and allow your well of creativity to be refilled. Winter is the perfect season for that. Thank you for all that you share, Rosemary. With my respect, admiration and gratitude, Monica

  16. alice shoemaker Says:

    I need guidance in how to write to you. I have a new computer tutor coming in January so I will learn to understand if this message ever gets to you. Via a blog. Drat,I say. In reply to your latest blog — its the climate — not you! A new direction will come to you when spring gets here — you know, growth, color, new things to see in nature. I speak for myself — and I spend my time getting “organized” for my next journal, photos,watercolors. In fact I may even paint and sketch in my new sketch book (400 lb cold press) in January from my new flowers which I find at QFC or Metro — I became obsessed with lilies last years–anyway your photographs are original and show different points of view andyour sketches and w.c show increasing confidence. So there! Happy New Year ahead 2014 and look forward to future approaches on your blogs. N ow comes the real challenge — how the heck do I get this flying away to your eyes–or does it go into the ether? Alice

    • Rosemary Says:

      I’m so happy your comments came through. Yes, this might be the winter of my discontent. But I will look on this as a positive, an incubation period, and not a death. Life has it’s shadows.

  17. shoreacres Says:

    I’ve been pondering this post since it went up. One things that’s occurred to me is that the relationship of “blog” to “art” may be different for photographers and painters than it is for those who work in words – poets, essayists, and so on.

    Because I do my work at the computer rather than out in the world, “blogging” is not so much something different from the act of creation as it is an extension of it – if that makes any sense. I’m not sure it makes sense to me – but there it is.

    Of course, from the beginning I drew a distinction between blogging and writing. My stated purpose was to use the blogging platform as a way to facilitate learning to write. Self-identifying as a writer rather than as a blogger allowed me to reject much of the received wisdom about how to have a successful blog – daily posting, self-promotion on social media, and so on.

    Similarly, I don’t think of you as a blogger, but as a photographer and painter who’s chosen to use this platform as a way to share your art. For me, there’s a huge difference. I’m infinitely grateful that you’ve chosen to share, and hope you’ll continue.

    If you haven’t seen this, from Gwarlingo, yet, it speaks to so many of the issues that lurk around the edges of your work and mine. I just took the time to read the whole thing and found it marvelous. It made me think of your moon shell series!

    If you don’t post again before Christmas, I hope your holiday is filled with wonder and joy. If you do? I’ll be here – with bloggie bells on!

    • Rosemary Says:

      You’ve given me a gift of wisdom. As you and Monica point out, there is something odd/off-putting about the word “blog,” and I think it’s time to retire the word from my vocabulary. It sounds too much like slog, and I’ve thankfully not felt like I’ve been slogging through deep snow to create my posts. They’ve been a joy. But I have been driven by the credo to publish frequently or lose my readers. I hear your wisdom in identifying as writer/artist/photographer instead of blogger. That feels right.
      I do go back and forth on the need for quantity vs quality. I sense that I will truly grow as a painter and photographer if I produce a lot of work — much of which will be bad or indifferent, but still valuable because of what I learn about technique and approach and myself in each piece. But for this self-published website (formerly know as my blog), I sense that I need to make quality, not quantity, my mantra.
      I do subscribe to gwarlingo, but on behalf of my readers, I want to thank you for the link to the thoughtful post about snowflake and artistic intention. I, too, think all the time about how to make my photos original/unique, and that is hard because (as stated in the gwarlingo post) “we are hard to impress at this stage of the game.” We’ve seen it all before. So my challenge is to see things with new eyes and bring out qualities that might ordinarily be overlooked, to express myself through my work. A worthy challenge.
      Thanks again, Linda, and Merry Christmas.

  18. Anne Says:

    Over the past year or so, I’ve checked in here every few days, and have been delighted every time. Its been a treat to look at the beautiful pieces you’ve compiled for us each day, I truly appreciate the link it gives me to art on days when I can’t find the time myself. I wish you the best of luck wherever this takes you, and I’m sure that anything you choose to share will be wonderful. Thank you so much for the poems and pictures and stories. Your pictures grace my desktop background each day.

  19. Mary Hull Says:

    Rosemary, I will miss seeing your blog every day. I’m always telling people about your incredible talent.

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